Friday, June 24, 2011

Back to Work

I've been working full time for a little over a week now.  I'm so conflicted as to how I feel about it.  Part of me really enjoys being able to exercise my brain, but the rest of me feels like I left my heart at home with the Nanny.

I have the Nanny text me updates about how Carina is doing during the day.  I know what you're thinking...that I'm an awful neglectful Mommy.  The truth is, I'm afraid to speak to her on the phone because if I happened to hear Carina squealing (she has been exercising her voice a lot lately!) or crying I think I would lose it.  I probably wouldn't be able to focus for the rest of the day.  I'm having difficulty in that department enough, as it is.

On my way home from work I find myself tailgating slowpokes and cursing the heartless traffic lights as they turn red when I approach them.  Every minute I sit in traffic is a minute lost with my little peanut.  I get anxious while turning into the driveway at home and then run walk inside (as briskly as possible).

I can't help but feel a little crazy.  Is this normal?  Have I lost it?  Just so this post isn't a complete downer...here is what I have to look forward to when I get home :)

I found my toes!

Linking up to jenni from the blog's Your 3 Words blog hop. 
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Katie said...

You are definitely not crazy! I do the same thing, and I have a 45 minute commute each way. Drives me absolutely insane!

Anonymous said...

I know that it's so tough to be back at work, but you are doing a great job. And at home, peanut reaches for you every chance she gets (especially at night). Two months of this babe and you are home with her all the time :) You can do it!

-DH

The "L" in ELF said...

I always had mixed feelings too. It always made me appreciate the time I do spend with him more though. =) It got easier (never easy, but easier) for me, I hope it does for you too!

PhaseThreeOfLife said...

Doesn't it seem like everyone drives slow on days you really miss your kid?? I got a new job a few months after I went back to work because I was wasting 2 hours in the car every day! The new job is much closer to home/daycare, which has helped me a lot. Hang in there; I know it's hard.

Emily Kate said...

Feeling crazy comes hand in hand with being a momma ha! Good luck with being back to work!:)

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Sugardrive said...

uhm..not horrible at all, but if you're horrible, i'm waaaay past that point. i called the sitter the first day i was back to work (after 12 weeks maternity). i heard zoey screaming in the background and refused to call ever since (5 months later). :\

jenni said...

Aww hun, IT GETS EASIER! Trust me... it does. =) Hang in there!

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Mags said...

This is exactly how I felt during my first week back to work. I'm on week three now, and I can't lie I'm still doing the same thing!

Heather said...

You're doing great! It does get easier, trust me! And luckily for you, you only have to do it for 2 months and then you get to stay home with her (way jealous!!). Hang in there :)

Little Gray Pixel said...

I want to commiserate because I feel the same way. I'm on week four of work now and I obsessively text my husband to send me a photo of her as soon as he picks up our 5-month-old from daycare. I feel like a piece of me is missing when I'm away from her.

diana said...

I'm right there with you. This is my second week back to work! I like my job and what I do, but I HATE being away from my son. And traffic is awful when all I want is to rush home to him.

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