Saturday, December 15, 2012
I didn't want to tell you like this, but it's probably the only way that this post will make sense...
I think I'm dealing with post-partum anxiety.
I had already been feeling crazy sporadically, but watching/reading the details about this tragedy is exacerbating the sense of foreboding that I haven't been able to shake lately.
So, I need to step away. From the internet, from the television, from anything that is currently speaking endlessly of murdered children, only 45 minutes away from me. I just can't handle it right now.
I'd like to clarify that this anxiety isn't something I'm struggling with constantly. I've actually been feeling pretty good lately, in general. It's random instances where these insane thoughts and nonsensical "what-if" scenarios pop into my head and consume me. Or these bouts of OMG MUSTDOEVERYTHING CANNOTSITDOWNEVER. This isn't me. I have never been like this or had these thoughts before and they are scaring me. I'm not going to get into too many details right now because I need to sort it out on my own first, but I just needed to let you know that I'll be unplugging for a while.
And of course my heart and prayers go out to the families and friends of the victims <3
P.S. I have my Toddle Along Tuesday post and few giveaways that are already written and scheduled for this week, so I will go ahead with those as planned. But otherwise I will be few and far between. So please forgive me if I don't answer your e-mails, tweets, comments, etc. right away.
Melissa @ Growing Up Geeky
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