Monday, February 1, 2010

Sorry about my tone...

Lately I feel like my tone on here has been a bit negative. I don't mean for it to be that way, because I promise you, M and I are having a lot of fun trying to get pregnant ;o)

I guess I'm just having difficulty with the fact that nothing really seems to be easy for us. I was hoping, praying, that we would be able to get pregnant quickly, as if God somehow owed us this because we've been dealt a crappy hand lately. Maybe I just have an entitlement issue...

In the last ten years I've had to handle watching one of my older sisters die, walking on eggshells with my younger sister so that she didn't try to kill herself again, getting raped, the legal process involved with the aforementioned issue, losing too many other relatives to name, being far away from our families, on and off medical issues, etc. Please don't get me wrong; I'm not complaining. Dealing will all of this has made me who I am today. I just don't know if I can handle anything else.

God, I thank you every day for my wonderful husband. Everything about our relationship has been easy, the only thing that has been easy for us, and I can't express how appreciative I am for that. But please, if you only ever do one more thing for us, let this be it.

11 words of geekdom:

Amberz2be said...

((HUGS))
And, you don't come across as negative to me.

Mike said...

Hey babe - I'm praying for the same thing.

-DH

Katie said...

Wow.. I had no idea you had gone through so much. Hugs, thoughts, and prayers!

Melissa said...

You're allowed to feel frustrated. Trust me, I know. Your time is coming, I can just feel it! Keep positive and that will get you through all the crap that life hands us.

:)

Shannon said...

I had no idea you had been through so much! I never thought you were being negative...TTC is frustrating and heartbreaking. Your baby is just up in heaven taking its sweet time to come down ;)

Kate said...

Missie, You are so allowed to be negative, if not here then where? You are doing very well with what you are facing and have faced (my goodness, I can't imagine, I'm so sorry). I hear people say that we aren't given more than we can handle, but that's easy to say when you aren't the one who keeps getting dealt lousy cards. Hang in there hon, and know that we are here for you! -ks :)

Ams8099 said...

Missie, it's YOUR blog. You can write what ever you want and have what ever tone you want. DON'T apologize! You have had to deal with so much. {{hugs}}

BTW, Majorly cute for Mike to sign as "DH"

What's New with Mrs.T said...

Oh wow, I did not know that you went through all of that. I am so sorry. You werent negative at all hun

:::hugs:::

Heather Cara said...

You are not negative, but you deserve to talk anyway you need to to handle/deal with all that you are going through. I am here if you ever need a shoulder or an ear :)

Melissa said...

I had no idea you had been through so much. ((hugs)) Your time will come and ditto to everyone else. You're allowed to feel negative and express yourself as so.
-Melissa (lissasue3)

Kat said...

omg I never knew how much you've been through - you are such a positive person.

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