Lately I feel like my tone on here has been a bit negative. I don't mean for it to be that way, because I promise you, M and I are having a lot of fun trying to get pregnant ;o)
I guess I'm just having difficulty with the fact that nothing really seems to be easy for us. I was hoping, praying, that we would be able to get pregnant quickly, as if God somehow owed us this because we've been dealt a crappy hand lately. Maybe I just have an entitlement issue...
In the last ten years I've had to handle watching one of my older sisters die, walking on eggshells with my younger sister so that she didn't try to kill herself again, getting raped, the legal process involved with the aforementioned issue, losing too many other relatives to name, being far away from our families, on and off medical issues, etc. Please don't get me wrong; I'm not complaining. Dealing will all of this has made me who I am today. I just don't know if I can handle anything else.
God, I thank you every day for my wonderful husband. Everything about our relationship has been easy, the only thing that has been easy for us, and I can't express how appreciative I am for that. But please, if you only ever do one more thing for us, let this be it.