I started spotting just a little bit on Tuesday night, and then I had a temp drop Wednesday morning. In the back of my head I was thinking "maybe it's implantation spotting and an implantation dip", until I had these sharp stabbing pains in my ute around noon on Wednesday. A few hours later, lots more spotting. Today, CD1. I am so sad. I cried last night while I was alone in my hotel room on my business trip. I felt so alone, so discouraged, so broken.
Every cycle I try so hard not to get excited, but I do anyway and then AF shows up. My chart this time around was so different from all of my other charts. I had cramps at 9 and 10 dpo (days post ovulation) that were different than any cramps I've ever had before. Of course I had to tell my Mom all about it, so now I'll have to call and tell her that I'm not pregnant. That will be a fun call to make.
Body...please stop fvcking with me. Seriously. Not cool.